Tw: Mental Health
Hi kind krafters,
I recently shared a post on facebook about how I celebrating (sounds strange but I think it’s fitting) my seven year anniversary of being hospitalized. At this time seven years ago, my mental health was at an all-time low. I was struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts and was in a very dark place. I had no regard for my future and very little hope. Tuesday May 22nd I was admitted to 4 South in the IWK after talking to health professionals for hours throughout the day. I was involved in therapy leading up to the day and lots of therapy sessions after. There was lots to overcome and I am proud to say that I am now a stronger woman because of my struggles with mental health.
In my post, I talked about how being able to reflect at the seven-year mark is such a gift. I never thought that I would be here seven years later, and definitely not living the life that I am now!! I am about to head into my final year of a Bachelor of Music degree, I have a black belt in karate, I have an amazing job at the Wolfville Farmers’ Market, I am a Youth Ambassador for this lovely non-profit, I am going to the President of the School of Music student society, I have friends and family who I love with all my heart and that - I can now say and believe – love me back! I have been able to figure out who I am, as well as learn how to recognize and acknowledge my strengths, and work on my weaknesses.
A main message that I want to try and communicate to anyone reading this, not to be cliché, is that it does get better! The hospital wasn’t a magic fix for me. I tried different anti-depressants that caused some issues for me and it definitely wasn’t a fun time. I had years of therapy and my road of recovery was NOT smooth sailing. I thought when I first entered university I was all good again, but my first year was actually a complete mess! I am not trying to make anyone nervous or upset, I just want to enforce that it will take time and a lot of hard work. Lean on your support systems! You may feel like a burden – you’re not- but you will appreciate everything in the end.
Another key thing for me, was getting involved with groups that made me feel happy. School was okay for me, but definitely not my happy place. My favourite spots were the dojo and choir rooms. These two activities helped me more than I can explain. Music speaks when words can’t and was an outlet for me to express my emotions through singing. Karate was a place I could release stress and calm my mind while practicing the 5 parts of the Dojo Kun. I think it is essential for people to find these outlets in their lives. I encourage people to try these new skills and take the risk of finding something that you love to do!
Thank you for reading this personal blog kind krafters! Please also know that you can always reach out to me to just talk or ask questions!! Sending lots of love xoxo